manifestation, from 1/10
  • today:

    i have a new beautiful car

    i am going to meet fully raw kristina on a retreat in costa rica

    i am applying to meet alyse for a retreat in hawaii

    i am going to see ariana grande live in phoenix with christian

    i am going to volunteer at the national parks with pima county master naturalists

    i am going to run a half marathon, my first half registration was for the A-mountain in october. thank you for run tucson and gabe zimmerman triple crown

    i applied for personalized training for said running journey

    i am going to pursue a deeper yoga journey with lesley fightmaster, yoga pal, and ashtanga

    i am going to volunteer for girls on the run at drachman

    i am going to learn cpr/first aid in february for free

    i am doing girls on the run at drachman as a volunteer

    i am going to be on the uaha board 

    i am considering taking a road trip over the summer and working for keys crew and camp fusion for easy $ and ua engagement

    i have the best jobs ever, bike ambassador and eee outreach presenter

    i just came back from the best family vacation ever, at walt disney world in florida

    i am awaiting an hsf scholarship

    although i remain uncertain about my graduate studies and coh external team position, i am in good terms and will find a way to resolve them. 

  • "When you plant seeds in the garden, you don’t dig them up
    every day to see if they have sprouted yet. You simply water
    them and clear away the weeds; you know that the seeds will
    grow in time. Similarly, just do your daily practice and cultivate a
    kind heart. Abandon impatience and instead be content creating
    the causes for goodness; the results will come when they’re
    ready."
    — Bhikshuni Thubten Chodron, “Meditator’s Toolbox
  • 1/1/19
  • today brought about some synchronistic patterns, reminiscent of my past with max

    today, we awoke to snow on the ground. this happened back in 1/1/16. except then, i had woken up next to max, i had ridden my bike past udall park, took a picture of the mountains and read max’s card/opened up his present- the purple necklace, and biked all the way home in the cold. it was a long, long bike ride and the snow was melting.

    i also recall somewhere in fall of 2014, riding past lebuzz and eating a scone and writing about it on here, before i took a tumblr hiatus.

    so here we are, after i spent the next two new year’s in the amazon rainforest (i really want to manifest that again), i spent it with my parents and efren, and awoke to melting snow and did a 8k (longer run for me) at udall park. i was able to see the snow on the mountains and eat a vanilla scone from lebuzz. 

    interestingly enough, as i was remembering all of this, maxwell answered my email from a week ago. i’m not sure what he was thinking as he read, where his thoughts are, and how he wants to proceed, but i take it as a good sign. 

  • championsaremade

    you have to make your own magic. and i’m talking about during the times of life where shit is really hard. when you don’t feel right. when things seem off. of course, it’s always easy to feel happiness and peace when things goes right. but where is the lesson in that? where is the growth? the development? when life is tiresome and the work seems mundane and things seem to slam you one after the other, you need to get the fuck up and create your own magic. the sunlight during your commute in the early winter morning, even just the sliver of it peeking out behind gray clouds. the cashier who told you they liked your hairstyle, even though it was in a bun from three nights before because showering was hard to do this week. there is magic everywhere, you just have to will yourself to see it sometimes. to believe in it. especially when it isn’t easy to do.